Ms. Busy Mizzy Dizzy Lizzy......

New Blog!

2008-06-24T16:20:00.000+08:00

Shifted to the new blog....

^_^

Bosan & Tension...

2008-06-24T13:15:00.002+08:00

skrang nie aku rser amat bosan... dan agak tension....

bosan... coz....
dok umah sorang2...
xder org nk cakap....
xder mood nk gi keja...
mody sangat minggu nie....

tension.... coz...
jiwa kaco....
aku benci bler rser camnie...
asyik2 kena marah...

idup nie kalo tak marah org mmg tak sah...
idup nie mmg tak kena kalo tak moody...
suka sgt nk marah... nk moody....

kadang2 terpikir kan...
idup nie takderla indah mananye...
cam biasa jer....
umpama... seperti air yg mengalir...
biler manusia mengocak2 kan air yg elok jer dok mengalir tue...
mula la ianya dicemari oleh mendapan2...

apa yg aku ngarut nie...
wakakak.... ^_*

Dear...

2008-06-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to my dear.....


I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights

I don't worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
I'm telling you there is no one
by Alicia Keys.. No Ones....

Movie...

2008-06-20T16:10:00.001+08:00

kalo last week aku ngk Kungfu Panda...
this week aku nk ngk HULK lak...

next week nk g jenjalan....
eehheheh...
time to relax....

^_*

CI..

2008-06-18T17:09:00.003+08:00

CI is stands for Continuous Improvement..
from 08:30 till 15:00....
it's soooo mengantuk....
but..
Edwin Y. Medel gimme lots of basic knowledge
'bout the manufacturing esp. in the printing site.

The Schedule:

DAY 01

CI Overview

MEBs

APRizal CI Projects

Proj Benefits Computation

CI Forecast Model

DAY 02

Global BPS

during the training session, i've been told that...
im the key person.. not only for PECAS...
but CI as well...

im gonna die!!!! huhu...

just now Kerain told me...
"if im not mistaken.... soon u gonna assist Mathias @ Europe for the PECAS"

what????

dear...
gonna miss u...
in advance of coz! ^_*

Daily Routine @ WorkPlace

2008-06-16T10:02:00.006+08:00

bler switch-on laptop @ office jer...

first thing aku buat..... aku bukak Interfaqce Control Client 1.1.0.3...

kalo ader error kat interface controller tue... aku bukak PECAS...

leps tue aku akan check official email aku @ Lotus Notes & email memain aku @ Yahoo...

bler dh settle proses2 kat atas tue... aku start me'meebo'kan diri aku... biasala.. bler dah YM xleh guna, aku crik la alternative yg lain... ehehhe

bler aku dah mula boring.... aku mula la mengarut lam blog...
seperti contoh... sekarang nie..... ^_*

itu la keja2 aku seharian... buat masa nie...
role as business analyst blum lagik mula...
so, lepak2 jer la dulu.... once dh attend training Balck/Green Belt...
stiap hari akan menjadi hari yg paling bz... huhu....

FATHER's DAY!!!

2008-06-13T08:53:00.004+08:00

masa aku bagun tdik....
aku dengar suara Fara Fauzana & FBI dok citer pasal Father's Day...
abah.. ayah... daddy.. appa.. walid.. dad...
apa sajer istilah... ia mempunyai maksud yg sama...
dan merujuk pada org yg sama...

tringat lak kat...

pak malek aka ayah kay...
pak usoff aka abah ainiey...
pak sharip aka abah ily...
pak salleh aka abah win....

and especially..

1. abah aku... Marsuki Bin Buang....

ensem lak abah aku nie... ehehe

2. abang.... Marfizul Azuan aka Peejoy..

meme aka myra & her daddy...

3. abang chik... Marfazli Azrul aka Roy..

maia si bulat... ehehehe... and her abah...

abang ipar aku.. Jamil aka Ame...

abg ame.. my bro-in-law ngan muneera..

HAPPY FATHER's DAY...!!!!

2008-06-11T09:58:00.002+08:00

Morning Discussion with Hans de Jonge.....
need to prepare myself bout:-

Green Belt
Black Belt
CI (Continuous Improvement)

apo bondo tuh???

cam pandai bonar aku nie.. sjak dr masuk keja sampai la sekrang nie aku dok mdownload notes dr server..... byk gilos.... kena study la lepas nie nampak gayanye...

Gokusen... Season 1...

2008-06-09T11:19:00.002+08:00

smalam, aku dh settle ngk citer GOKUSEN season 1...
aritue sblm aku brenti dr MIGS, aku mendownload byk citer jepun...
eheheh... best giler...
credit to KAY.. coz dia yg memperkenalkan website tue...

GOKUSEN...
walaupun citer tue dh lama...
tapi aku bru jer nengok... eheheh...
best giler... tapi cikgu dia punya la ganas...
almaklumla... keturunan yakuza...

biler aku ngk citer nie...
aku tringatkan x-student aku masa kat MMC(N)..
class DMT 07 (E).... rindu sgt waktu tue...
apa2 pun... just hope for the best to all of them...

My Bad Day.. huhu

2008-06-06T13:57:00.002+08:00

woke up early in the morning....
ngk2 spec dh terpenyek...
then... konon2 nk repair sndrik...
alih2... trus pecah... uwaaaa....
sayang spec aku......

pegi office pakai jugak la spec pecah tue...
kol 10... trus gi rawang beli contact lense...
terbang duit aku... sedih sangat...

petang nie kena gi umah abg chik dulu..
amik abah... abah balik dr Pulau Bawean.... eheheh...
then trus balik Taiping.... huhu penatnye..
tapi kena balik jugak nk angkut sgala harta karun...

Minyak ohhh Minyak....

2008-06-05T08:40:00.003+08:00

arinie smua org dtg office ngan muka layu... ehehe..
termasuk la aku..... monyok jer muka smua org....
bler tanya asal muka 'spedot'...
smua org jawab.. " i was stuck in the jam last nite"

petang smalam... received a call...
"dear.. minyak penuh ke tak?"
lam ati aku... xpenah2 tanya minyak aku... eheheh.. pelik sungguh...
"tak penuh.. jap gi nk isi.."
"minyak dh naik harga $2.70"
terkedu aku jap.... naik almost $1...

ms tue dh otw nk gi Giant... konon2 nye nk beli tilam lipat2...
tapi takder ampes... so.. kol 8 dr pekan Rawang...
stuck in the jam almost 4 hours tuk balik umah...
smpai umah kol 12.05 tgh mlm... agak patah kaki jugak la...

tapi yg bestnye... nengok gelagat org...
ada satu adegan... 2 org lelaki bertumbuk smpai ambulance dtg just coz of cut queue..
then.. ada satu adegan lak... sorg makcik jdik gangster...
ketuk2 keta org... marah2.. coz keta tue taknak jln...
kira main ikut suka ati nk berenti...
yg paling best.... pakcik yg tgh tunggu turn nk isi minyak...
siap leh lepak2 isap rokok sembang2 ngan org sblh2 keta...
tringat lak abah... abah slalu gak camtue... eheheh.. rindu abah lak...

tension mmg la tension.. coz penat sgt... tapi takderla sampai nk marah2...
aku layan jer ngk karenah org... ehehhe...
inilah dikatakan rakyat malaysia.... masyarakt yg sungguh majmuk...

smua org sanggup menghabiskan masa di petrol pump smata2 isi minyak "full tank"
masa tue jugak org yg tak penah kiter tegur @ senyum...
dh jadik kenalan kiter... ehhheheh.....

pagi nie.. masa beli nasik lemak...
"braper makcik?".... "2 ringgit"
"mak aii... naik harga ker"... "aah.. minyak kan dh naik"
lam ati aku... cepat tul naik harga... dr $1.50 ke $2...

mari smua... kiter ramai2 men'diet'kan diri.... ehehhe....
berjimat cermat la anda.... seruan dr iRiNa MaRciLLa MaRsuKi... huahuahua...
^_*

lalalalala...

2008-06-04T10:18:00.000+08:00

aku sebnrnye confius ngn job scope aku sendrik..
eheheh boleh tak camtue....

official position stated lam contract aku...
Business Analyst...
this position is newly created...
bler aku tanya si Hans de Jonge apa job scope aku...
dia kata "for the time being, you're the key person of PECAS in Malaysia.."

then office aku sdrik pun takder lagik...
for this 2 weeks, aku dok skali ngan Ronaldo & Heike...
smalam aku tanya la Nora.. she said "U'll b in the Prod" pelik lak aku...

confius.. confius...
to whom im reporting to..??
which department im in..??

smua menda OK!!

2008-06-02T09:09:00.002+08:00

so far.. smua menda OK...

pemindahan rumah berjalan dengan lancar... seperti yg dirancangkan....
walaupun penat... dan agak duit byk abis... tapi memuaskan..
biarpun umah itu cam umah setinggan.. tapi aku berpuas ati...
coz... aku tak perlu lg ulang alik Bkt Jalil - Rawang.....
penat sgt...

Pecas.... so far... ok...
just a minor prob occured....
itupun DonDon n Heike yg troubleshoot kan.. eheh..

Kay/Ainiey..
sorry babes... aku xleh nk gi Seremban last weekend...
tak sempat nk gi sana... aku igt boleh settlekan keja b4 kol 3...
but i cant make it.. im sorry... =(

Last Day of the Week...

2008-05-30T14:54:00.002+08:00

arinie amik kunci umah...
esok gi shopping beli brg asas kat lam umah..
aku dah list kan smua menda yg nk kena beli...
malamnye... gi dinner with my bros at Bora Ombak...
ahad... gi Ikea.. then pegi Rawang... basuh umah...
on Monday... pindah umah...

waahhhh.. starting next week...
kena tido sorang2... uwaaa....
umah tukar jdik kilang la....
lampu akan sntiasa bukak... ehehehe

PECAS & EXACT Globe 2003..

2008-05-27T10:10:00.007+08:00

this week.. im bz with PECAS and the EXACT GLOBE2003...
bz to learn.. back to schooolll... ehehe ^_*

this Sat & Sun i have to work coz the system will b live run on the 1st June..
ala... bru pikir nk basuh umah sabtu nie (umah bru la katakan.. eheh)....
kalo dh keja.. bler jer nk pindah... huhu...
boleh jer kot... tp mesti letih sgt...

Heike helps me alot on PECAS & EXACT.. but of course aku kena blajar sendrik dgn jayanya.... according to Hans, im the key-person of PECAS.... matila aku.... =( but Dondon (Ronaldo) promised to guide me and same goes to Heike.... hopefully takderla masalah kat situ... for the time being, aku kena familiar ngan system...

Steps yg perlu aku buat tuk familiar with the system....

print out smua notes or apa sjer yg aku jumper lam server psal PECAS.. eheheh... abisla ink printer kat dpn tuh...eheheh

explore the system... yg nie pling best... bleh buat transaction sendrik.. tapi of course la lam test db... kalo buat lam live db.. aku sendrik jgak yg ssh nnt.. ehehe... kononnye cam pandai jer la aku nie....

study... yg nie.. aku paling malas... aku tak suka mmbaca.... adeeiihh... tapi i have to... huhu =(

nie la rupabentuk PECAS & EXACT GLOBE2003...

Planning...

2008-05-23T17:16:00.002+08:00

today is the last day to work (meaning for this week)....
have long chit chat with kevin...
he asked me lots of question bout islam..
from our conversation i can say that.. he's a free thinker...
our discussion is more on logic thinking...
not too religious....
lots of thing i learn from the conversation.. ^_^

tommorrow... im goin to bkt beruntung to find a house to rent...
almost a week i "ulang alik" from bkt jalil to rawang...
its quite a long way to come to work...
and it takes lots of money to pay for toll & petrol.. (for me..!!!)
moving here is a good idea even there's no nite life here...
but every week i'll back to my bro's house..

sunday... thinking to watch movie....
Narnia...Ironman...Speedracer...what else haa... errrmmm....
What Happen in Vegas... Drillbit Taylor... Indiana Jones...
makk aiii... byknyer aku tertinggal... eheheh...

dear hopefully we can watch the movie on Sunday...
=P

CONGRATS

2008-05-22T17:49:00.002+08:00

CONGRATES to HUDA AINIYAH....for the engagement.

walaupun benda tue dh lama berlaku dan baru sekrang nie aku wish..

dan walaupun aku baru tau tdik....

terasa? only GOD knows....

HeartBreaking....?????

2008-05-21T08:16:00.003+08:00

pg2 lg aku dh baca blog org... eheheh
biler boring mula la aku menjelajah....
blog JIRO... she was my coursemate @ Manjung...
entry "HEARTBREAK THERAPY" yg buatkan aku tersenyum...

knoe why??? ehehhe....
topic berkenaan ngn menda2 yg kiter buat biler putus cinta...

kalo jiro, dia akan buat facial... makan..
ngk dvd, bc buku or lepak2 ngn member @ kopitiam.. xpun gi holiday....

kalo aku lak...
time heartbreak niee la aku membuat kwn2 bru.... ehehe...
bler ada kawan baru means i can kill my time...
lepak2 kat Oldtown... nengok wayang ngan my luvly frens (kay & ainiey)...
g jalan2 ngan kay & ainiey.. thanx babes...
dan ada ktikanya aku punya scandals... hahahah... jahat gilos....
tapi sekejap jee la pun prangai gila2... then back to normal....
actly... byk menda yg aku buat tuk layankan heartbreak nie....
but since i hv my bucuk.. ehehhe.... smua menda aku stop...
thanx dear... ^_*

hopefully, there will b no more heartbreak...

slagi manusia mmpunyai rasa....
slagi manusia punya prasaan...
slagi roh brada dalam jasad...
slagi pengaliran udara punya fungsi...
slagi itu manusia akan menghadapi pelbagai dugaan...

apala yg aku mengarut ni.... hahaha....

New Job...

2008-05-15T15:47:00.002+08:00

aku dpt kja baru... so, sekrang nie aku kena travel from Bkt Jalil to Rawang...
quite far... bout 60 km one way...
sangat penat... tdik seawal 5.30 am bgn tido trus siap2 gi office...
sambil2 tue dok melayan si mata bulat tue...
awal lak dak kecik tu bgn...
bgn2 jer trus dok tenggek kat walker yg aku beli smlm...
eeheheh... suka benor budak tue main menda alah tu...
sampai Rawang lam kol 7 am.... itu kalo tak jam tue....

end of this week nk gi nengok umah yg dekat2 sini...
terpaksa la coz badan aku nie dah sdia maklum lemahnya...
takut nnt trus flat coz travel cam nie........
for the time bein, dok umah abg chik... mlm2 leh gomol si Maia Hasya ^_*

apa aku nak buat niee....
bosan giler.... tdik brief psal safety kat kilang....
skrang nie... dok lepak jer...
sib baik bawak laptop gi keja....
kalo tak mau mati keejung kat sini... huhu....

Mama & Abah...

2008-05-12T14:25:00.002+08:00

last weekend.. i went back 2 Taiping....
Mama admitted @ Hospital Taiping...
sabtu tghari sampai.... on that nite, aku temankan mama....
ahad tgahri aku balik umah jap...
nengok abah terbaring.....
then, abah ngadu gatal2 badan....
aku nengok kaki abah ada bintik2 merah...
aku suh abah gi spital amik darah....

bertolak balik KL kol 8 mlm.....
on the way... akak call....
abah kena admit hospital coz of DENGGI....
terdiam la aku.. rser nk nangis pun ada...
both of my parent kena admit hospital....

itula namanya dugaan...
arinie... pagi2 aku dah mintak EL dr Datin Asiah...
sminggu aku akan ada kat Taiping till next week....
*sigh....

Risau... Im sooooo worried...

2008-05-08T09:44:00.002+08:00

smalam kol 11.30 pm, received a msg dr abg chik...
demam mama dh ok sket.. tapi jantung bengkak... then infection kat hati..
risau sangat.. abah pun tak sihat sangat... baru jatuh aritue...
adeeiihhhh... risaunye lahai....

rser cam nk balik jer sekrang tapi xleh....
so... igt nk balik esok malam...
tapi... bler blk ngn anim & maia... kena pikir dua kali...
coz bwk budak kecik nie... xelok jalan malam2...
sian lak kat maia & anim........

kena sabar banyak2 nie
sabtu pagi2 aku akan bertolak balik taiping....
hopefully everything gonna b fine....

Mama...

2008-05-07T10:45:00.004+08:00

Maimunah Ismail...
seorang yg amat penting lam idup aku...
tanpanya.. aku xkan idup di muka bumi ini..
seorang yg tabah.. cekal... dan...
mpunyai tahap kesabaran yg tahap dewa..

ingat lagik... masa aku standard 6...
aku, mama, abah sekolah pagi..
tiap2 ari jumaat.. balik jer sekolah aku tunggu kat hall...
jadik penunggu setia... nampak jer muka mama...
trus aku terpa... eheheh... coz....
every Friday, mama akan blk umah by taxi...
meaning that... mama akan singgah kat pekan...
she always bought me "chocolates".... ehehehe...
a small gift but yet im soooo happy....
walaupun kekadang tak cukup duit..
mama akan belikan chocolate yg kecik...

even skrang nie pun...
mama taknak ngk anak2 dia ssh..
tak kirala... dh kawen ker ataupun blum..(aku jer la pun yg tak kawen... hehe..)
aku amat beruntung.. punya mama yg agak sporting...
she always b my side walau apa yg jdik skalipun...
almaklumla... anakmu ini penuh ngan dugaan n cabaran idup...
sbb tue la sampai sekrang tak kawen2... =P

smalam.... mama admitted @ Hospital Taiping...
risau tak sudah nie.... idup pun dh tak senang...
arinie birthday mama... sian mama....
hopefully she will get well soon....

mama...
i just wanna say....
I LUV YOU SO MUCH more than the words can say...
sayang mama sangat...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA
&
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.....

Long Holiday....

2008-05-03T00:05:00.003+08:00

ari Khamis... pagi bertolak balik Taiping...
cuti dr Khamis till Sunday....
bukan buat apa pun... just lepak2 kat umah...
layankan si Maia n Aqil....

tdik lepak2 ngan Ima @ Secret Recipe... (thanx ima 4 ur treats.. ^_^)
apa jer yg aku buat lgik...
teman kan mama gi Giant & Tesco...
tue jer la pun...

on Monday... i've an interview...
so... aku amik MC.... ehehehe...
monteng jer aku nampak gayanye....

lamanya aku tak jumper my dear...
rindunyeeee......
dear, ur shirt dh ilang bau... huhu...

Tears with the "White Sky"

2008-04-28T08:37:00.003+08:00

through my red curtains

i see a white sky

a sky that just learned how to cry

the street outside my house seems so wet

from all the tears of my dear whie sky

white sky, white sky

did you cry the same time, when my soul told you

the second my pulse stopped

and my body was in a shocked

my head spinning in many directions

that's when my eyes too learned to react

by forming a liquid called tears

tears that you and me white sky both had to cry...

\\\//Natasha Hudson//\\WHITE SKY\\//

aku suka baca buku 'My Heart My Soul My Passion' by Natasha Hudson... its all about poems written by herself.... this WHITE SKY, agak similar ngn keadaan aku sekrg nie... maybe... i dont know... *sigh

smalam... terasa kesakitan yg amat sgt... physically and mentally as well....
hati ku fragile... i think its too fragile....
ntahla.... i dont knoe whats wrong with me actually....
is it ME ??? or someone else.. is wrong....
im totally not happy now....
i would never do that again...
i will stop asking.... just let it be...

my instinct.... tells me.....
it's already faded... not because its not enough...
but its already faded... it was like... errmmm....
deep inside me i can feel it......

Boring...

2008-04-19T13:03:00.001+08:00

i think.. it's time to move on...
move on to another place...
yeah... its time for me to go....
work hard on it...
hopefully... soon.....

Probs... probs... n probs....

2008-04-17T16:16:00.002+08:00

ada org kata bler ada masalah...
ALLAH nk uji kiter whether kiter nie tabah or org yg lemah...
tapi ada jugak org kata... bler ada masalah....
tue tandanya ALLAH sayangkan kiter....

whatever it is life must go on....

i luv my family..... n also my someone....

Fraser's Hill...

2008-04-11T14:53:00.003+08:00

08/04/2008 - 10/04/2008

aku gi Fraser for the Junior School Staff Inset....

spanjang program kat saner, aku jdik cameraman....

facilitator di'import' dr UK & her name is Diane Crook...

best dpt facilitator nie... aku tak ngantuk langsung...

walaupun aku tak joint smua activities yg dia buat,

tapi indirectly aku kena dgr jugak apa yg dia cakap

coz kena tangkap gambar maaa...

byk menda aku blajar dr Diane...

yg paling best bler kat Fraser nie...

the nite before kitorg smua balik....

ada "DANCE NITE"... so, smua org diwajibkan menari...

byk tarian ada... bangra... twist... disco.. chicken dance..

hip hop... limbo rock... mcm2 lg.....

aku & ikha... paling active skali menari...

kitorang hanya rest 2 minutes in the between...

then continue balik.... gilo botul eden.... wkakaka...

mmg enjoy abis.... ^_*

Fraser's Hill... tpt dia lawa sangat.....

mist yg turun bagaikan salji....

kat cameron & gentiing tak camtue....

tapi pada aku... fraser's tpt agak ngeri...

eheheheh... aku nie penakut.... tpt lama..

smua bangunan lama & tak ramai org sangat kalo pegi ari biasa...

cam ghost town... but... no doubt the place is soooooo nice.......

My Hair..!!!

2008-04-08T09:00:00.007+08:00

after quite along time... aku tak potong rambut...

rambut jdik agak panjang....

so... disebabkan cuaca yg agak panas last month & ke'bz'an yg melampau...

aku memaksa kak zai tuk memotong rambutku yg panjang itu....

yg tensionnye.... abis senget benget rambut aku.. eheehh tapi xleh marah dia coz aku yg memaksa dia tuk memotong... padan la muka aku..... hasilnye...

lepas Senior Sports aritue... aku mengheret kak zai dgn paksaan (eheheheh.. kejam gila aku..!!!) bawak gi salon kat pandan indah... hasil guntingan dr seorang yg professional.... maka terhasil la rambutku yg baru lam masa yg singkat... im happy with my new hair style walaupun si penggunting telah menghasil satu 'fringe'.... huhu... buruknye muka aku ader fringe tapi seronok coz terasa ringan sangat kepala.... ^_^ it's a fresh new look...

Happy Hour....

2008-04-07T14:52:00.002+08:00

last weekend, supposed aku keja but tetiba Datin Asiah declared cuti...
eheheh.,.. melompat la smua org....
aku..... kalo tak cuti pun, aku tetap akan mencutikan diri aku...
coz aku dh janji ngan mama & aqil nk balik tepeng....
agak lama aku tak balik nie... sian aqil....

aku balik ari jumaat malam ngan abg chik & fam....
bertolak kol 10 mlm.... sampai lebih kurang kol 3 pg....
sabtunye.. bangun agak lewat... dok main ngan maia... layan si aqil....
eheheh... takpi mana pun..... menolong abg chik masak carbonara....
sampai ke malam.... mmg totally relax @ home..... lepak memanjang...
ahad pun hari melepak... tapi kena gak mendobi baju2 aku yg kotor.....

konon nk bertolak balik kol 2 pagi.. tapi sudahnya bertolak kol 3 pagi...
eheheh... janji ngan abg chik nk drive balik... tapi just half way....
lepas tue aku ngantuk sangat... huhu.. sorry la abg chik...
bukannye sengaja..... sampai jer office kol 9 a.m.
lewat sejam... hahahahaha pecah rekod aku........

apa jer aku buat arinie.....
mengantuk siihhhh.....
tido bawah kaunter... eheheh....
nikmat gilos.....

dear... miss u so much!!! ehehehe....
this song is just for u.... hope u'll like it...

SEMPURNA

Kau begitu sempurna

Dimataku kau begitu indah

kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu

Disetiap langkahku

Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu

Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

*Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku

Takkan mampu menghadapi semua

Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Reff:Kau adalah darahku

Kau adalah jantungku

Kau adalah hidupku

Lengkapi diriku

Oh sayangku, kau begitu

Sempurna.. Sempurna..

Kau genggam tanganku

Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh

Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

[aNDRa & THe BaCKBoNe]

*Sigh...

2008-04-04T15:17:00.002+08:00

mlm nie... aku balik tepeng... agak lama aku tak jejak kaki kat kg....
aqil dh lama dh tunggu kat umah tue.... eheheh
tiap2 ari dok tanya biler aku nk sampai...
tp takderla lama mana aku balik tepeng.. just weekend..

next week... on Tuesday, aku gi Fraser's Hill...
ada Staff Inset... aku joint Jr School...

bulan 3 & 4.. adalah bulan yg amat memenatkan.....
badan tak sempat2 nk rehat.....
nsb baik smua menda dh ok... takder apa lagik yg pending....

bler dh penat... smua org akan ngamuk...
ada jugak yg nk marah2..... tak terkecuali aku...
tapi kali nie aku dimarahi....
arinie masuk la ari ke-2 aku kena marah...
apa sjer yg aku cakap... apa sjer soalan yg kuar dr mulut aku...
aku kena marah... errrmmm.... mungkin sayangnya dh ilang....
ntahla..... biarla... aku dh penat tuk pikir menda2 camnie.....

*sigh

My New Baby... ^_^

2008-04-03T14:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday..
all my works hv been DONE excellently... ehehehe...
it's such a relief...... can u imagine... i need to process 522 new books in a few days (alone!!!)
just took bout 2 and the half days to finish it... ehehe.... WELL DONE Marci....

and yesterday also...
i've bought for myself a brand new cell phone... Philips 392...
this is the first time im using Philips...
b4 this, Motorola v360....
i dont know how to use this touch-screen phone...
ehehehe..... i'll get use to it... =P

2morrow.. will goin back to Taiping...
misses my mama so much... and also my "tot-tot" @ Aqil.... eheheh
mama told me that rite now Aqil gets taller than b4...
so... no longer "tot-tot".... actly tot-tot is stands for "ketot".. ^_*

got to go.....
need to update the school's official website....

Keep changing... huh!

2008-03-29T08:34:00.005+08:00

smalam.... Datin Asiah kasik arahan kat aku....

"IRINA... U GOIN TO FRASER FOR JR SCHOOL INSET"

reaction aku.....

SENGIH.... lam ati.... DAMN!!! Y ME ???

errrmmm... im goin alone.. (means from the support staff department)..

tension jer dengar.... aku taknak pegi... coz aku sorang jer....

the Bali trip have been cancelled... aku tak kisah sangat...

tapi taknak gi Fraser sorang2.... aku mmg sangat tidak selesa....

malam... gi dinner @ BurgerKing KLCC...

rindunyer lahai... slalu jumper pun still rindu lagik....

eheheh.. tapi nk buat camner.....

dr dulu... since 1998... aku dh biasa adanya my dear by my side...

2004.. graduation nite @ Summit Hotel

2008 @ GSC OU....

sebuah kisah....

2008-03-28T07:47:00.002+08:00

aku pelik... nper seorang lelaki yg dh kawen bercinta ngan seorang perempuan yg juga dh kawen... inikah dikatakan dunia akhir zaman.. yg memualkan lagik, diorang berkepit ke sana ke mari berdua tanpa memikirkan org lain seolah2 mereka berada di dunia yg tidak punya manusia lain.... actly, aku tak kisah... gi mampus la diorang nk buat apa pun... coz i've lost my repect to both of them...

pada aku... kemuliaan seorang isteri terletak pada perilakunya dimana dia menjaga tertib seorang isteri dikala suami tidak berada disisinya.... she should know bout this thing coz she's graduated from Islamic University... isskkk... terbabas lak dr tujuan asal.. ehehehe...

the thing is.... nper that particular lady.... tak puas ati lagik...
asal nk kaco idup aku.... gi mampus la kan....
aku tak kaco idup korang tue kira dh cukup bagus la....
aku tak ruined life korang, family korang, tak kucar kacirkan ur happy family.... ok per....
takyah gatal2 nk gi citer ngn org lain pasal aku....
kalo tak puas ati... meh sini... kiter citer.....

bengong punya manusia....
eloknya tinggal jer diorang dua kat Taman Negara Pahang aritue...
leh kawan ngan wild boar... dh elok sangat dah tue...
dah elok2 ada happy family, ada anak still nk menggatal lagik....

sbnrnye aku tak kisah sangat... tak heran pun...
and PLUS aku malas nk amik port...
tapi jangan la kaco idup aku....
pantang sungguh.....
marah aku dr smalam mmg tak padam2...
bengong.....

ermmm...

2008-03-25T08:27:00.003+08:00

aku xtau nk explain camner actly...
mslhnye... perlu ker aku explain kat smua org...??
i dont think so.... but trust me...
aku tau aper yg aku buat sekrang nie....
dan aku tau ramai yg concerned bout me....
tapi kekadang... its our own life....
we need to create it in our own way....
as long as it's not wrong.....

bak kata anim.... "smua org risau kat ina"...
nper perlu risau....???
xder benda nk risau... dont worry too much...

i keep wondering.... nper menda2 nie jdik kt aku...
tapi ada org ckp..
"menda2 yg jdik nie buatkan kiter lebih mengenali org lain & juga diri kiter sendrik..."

at this moment... aku bersyukur...
ramai yg sayang aku rupanya... ehehehh....

kiter tidak perlu untuk menjadi org lain...

kiter juga tidak perlu membanding dgn org lain....

kiter perlu menjadi kiter....

kiter perlu menerima diri kiter seadanya sblm org lain menerimanya...

dan kiter juga perlu bersyukur dgn apa yg kiter ada....

Taman Negara Pahang....

2008-03-24T09:44:00.002+08:00

Khamis (20/03/2008)
aku bertolak dr sek ke Pahang kol 8 a.m.
sampai jetty Kuala Temebeling about 12 pm....
then kena naik boat lak... bout 3 hours for the boat's ride....
sampai Mutiara Taman Negara lam kol 3 pm...
kami disambut dengan towel basah & air... kononnye itu adalah tradition diorang...
lepas lunch, aku check-in with Nadia Razlan & Fathimah (both are the stdnts)
we've got activities till 10 pm...

Jumaat (21/03/2008)
seawal 6 pg aku dh bgn... sgt mengantuk...
petang... kitorg gi melawat org asli village....
sgt sedih bler ngk keadaan umah diorang... there's no walls at all...
there's no electricity.... no pipes for water....
serba serbi depends on the nature.....
really amazing when they lite up the fire without using matches or lighter...
i've tried to blow "sumpit"... eheheh...
aim kat kepala patung tapi kena kat kaki patung... hahahaha....
malam lak ada culture nite.. presentation dr students sempena maulidur rasul....

Sabtu (22/03/2008)
kitorang ada Canopy Walk....
best sangat... tapi gerun bler ada org melompat2 & menghentak kaki bler nk jalan.....
that thing will swinging.... ehehehe.... suka sangat....
for the first 5 minutes... agak menakutkan but after that aku dah boleh ngk bwh...
dh boleh pandang kiri kanan.... ehehehe....
tapi yg penatnye... kena jalan about 1 hour tuk sampai ke canopy walk....
but its really really fun... ^_*

apa yg best bout this trip...

tpt dia mmg tenang.... very nature.....
dapat naik boat.... mmg layan siihhhh... ngan scenary yg best.. angin yg bisa mmbuatkan kiter tertido.. eehehhe
dpt ngk wild boar yg berkeliaran... seriously aku x penah ngk wild boar yg ala2 jinak cam binatang peliharaan jer... yg kelakarnye... sikit punya besar la wild boar nie siap muka garang lagik tapi makan cacing... pecah perut aku gelak... eheheh
dpt gi Org Asli Village ngk cara idup diorang... yg paling best aku dpt menyumpit patung comel... ^_*
naik Canopy Walk.... agk gerun tapi best sangat....
dan yg paling ketara bestnye biler dapat gelakkan Kak Zai... eheheh... only me & her know whats goin on... wakakaka....

*Pics will be upload @ my fotopages soon...

BZ...

2008-03-14T07:18:00.002+08:00

terlalu byk benda yg kena di'settle'kan...
early of March aritue, ader Fitness Run....
aku incharged psal prizes....
then this week..... smua org bz psal Sports Day...
Junior & Senior Sports Day buat asing2....
ari Rabu aritue aku gi KL Stadium Cheras coz of Senior Sports Rehearsal....
arinie ader Junior Sports & esok Senior Sports...

next week, kena gi Taman Negara Pahang... ada Islamic Camp...
aku kena settle psal certificate smua budak2 yg pegi camp tue....
starts from scratch.... dr design sampai la kerja print aku kena buat....
agak tension coz smua menda last minute & actly its beyond my job scope...

early of next month, mayb on the 9th April, im going to Bali...
ada Staff Inset.. going 2gether with Junior School Teachers..
Senior Teachers going seperately....

dan sekrang nie aku baru jer proceed pembelian buku2 from Kinokuniya..
ada 599 books yg akan masuk within this few weeks...
keja2 yg amat byk....

take a deep breath marcilla... u can do it..!
ehehehehhe... ^_^

Kembali Tersenyum...

2008-03-11T16:16:00.002+08:00

aku kini dh kembali tersenyum...
ramai org tegur... muka aku 'glowing'... berseri2...
ceria memanjang...
nper jdik camtue??
ehehehe....

thanx a lot my dear..
im sorry for what i've done to u..
i dont want to promise u anything...
and yet, i dont have anything 2 give..
but what can i say is... luv u so much!!!

Happy ??? ^_*

2008-03-10T12:25:00.003+08:00

I dont knoe what 2 say...
its suddenly happen....
seriously im not plan these....
but im happy for it...

last weekend....
i've spent my time with a special person in my life....
im totally happy... thank u so much dear...

what past is past...
i've done a big mistake, twice...
and there's no the "3rd" mistake... insyaAllah...

^_*

The Love I Found in You

2008-03-06T11:48:00.002+08:00

You are the air I need to breathe

the river of life inside of me

you are the half that made me whole

you are the anchor of my soul

and you are strong when I am weak

you are the words when I can't speak

you never fail to see me through

that's the love I found in you

you are my shelter from the storm

you are the road that leads me home

and baby with you here face to face

Oh I know I've found my place

and you are strong when I am weak

you are the words when I can't speak

you never fail to see me through

that's the love I found in you

and once in every life

you find the one that's right

and when you say forever it's true

That's the love I found in you

You are strong when I am weak

you are the words when I can't speak

you never fail to see me through

That's the love I found in you

That's the love, love I found in you

- The Love I Found in You - Jim Brickman -

Ada org suh aku dgr lagu nie....
but aku rser lagu nie sesuai ditujukan kat one person yg jumper aku smalam @ KLCC...
this song is just for you....
thats all....

nothing...

2008-02-28T07:56:00.002+08:00

Waking up to find another day

The moon got lost again last night

But now the sun has finally had its say

I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think

When I let it sink in

It's all over me

I'm lying here in the dark

I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

& all I know is

You've got to give me everything

Nothing less cause

You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am

I'm handin' over everything that I've got

Cause I wanna have a really true love

Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up

Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring

& I want to make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time?

Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe

Don't want to lose the love I've found

Remember when you said that you would change

Don't let me downIt's not fair how you are

I can't be complete, can you give me more?

& all I know is

You got to give me everything& nothing less cause

You know I give you all of me

4 In The Morning - Gwen Stefani

nper aku nie dilahirkan ngan hati yg lembut....
kekadang aku terfikir....
lebih baik mempunyai hati yg keras ataupun hati yg lembut..???
dlm diri aku nie penuh dengan kasih sayang....
sampaikan kadang2 aku penat tuk menyayangi org lain...

idup umpama roda....
kekadang kiter di atas.. kekadang kiter di bawah...
masalah slalunye akan hadir di setiap sudut...
apa yg pasti... walau apa pun yg datang...
kiter mesti meneruskan idup kiter tanpa putus asa...

bak kata arwah abg ngah.....
"we r just the survivals in this whole wide world.."

Adhoc

2008-02-26T11:28:00.000+08:00

another adhoc plan...
bler ngan ainiey & kay...
diorang stiasa ada adhoc plan..

this time... ainiey punya plan...
kay tak dapat join coz ada menda kena settle...
so... aku, ainiey & wawi... in action....

aku enjoy every single moment that i had with them...
till.......
sampai kat keta aku... nk balik ampang...
keta aku kena langgar ngan bus sekolah ms aku parkin keta @ Kg Baru...
tension giler....
report police dh buat smalam... tapi...
takleh buat per coz takder saksi...
a simple note cant do anything without any contact no on it...

a good time comes along with a bad thing....
^_*

TingTong!

2008-02-21T14:49:00.002+08:00

for the whole week.... im TINGTONG!!!
dh la tingtong... kena lak batuk yg agak teruk....
bdn pun dh rser panas2... nk demam..

half of my soul been gone!

aku sendrik tak paham nper camnie....
byk benda yg aku tak paham skrang nie...
aku jdik numb...
tak rser apa2 langsung.....

smalam... dpt email dr aniey....
touching sgt.... yeah... we(ainiey, kay & me) just like adik-beradik....
ainiey telah berjaya menitiskan air mata aku...
sedih sgt... im speechless....
aku tau diorg taknak aku jdik cam skrang nie....

frens never hide.... frens never lie....
i will counter back my life just like before....
aku tau.. masih ramai lagik yg sayang aku....
thanx dudes... ^_^

errmm... speechless...

2008-02-19T09:35:00.002+08:00

last nite... went 2 KLCC.. watched JUMPER @ TGV....
with kay, k.ila, wawi & ainiey...
actly, its an adhoc plan... (always like that..)
showtime, 9.00 pm...

b4 that... went 2 McD @ Ampang...
met someone.. after had some argument...
we've DONE!! need 2b strong eno' 2 face all of it...

lps jer movie tue... aku antar k.ila & kay balik kg baru...
sblm tue.. lepak2 ngan kay @ tpt biasa kitorg...
dh lama sbnrnye tak sembang, citerkan masalah aku kat diorg..
coz aku xnak diorang sedih psal aku...
so, last nite... aku citer the whole thing bout me...
i mean... spjg 2 bln kebelakangan nie...

i can see thro' her eyes.... i knoe she was disspointed with me...
terngiang2 lagik ayat Kay...
"u wanna kill urself haaa..!!" dan lagik 1 dia cakap...
"mayb im not good enough 2 give u an advice.."

dearie... im so sorry what i've done in my life...
its not bcoz of u r not good eno'....
i knoe... im so stupid....
sampaikan pagi nie aku teringat2... mata kay bergenang...
"aku rser nk bunuh that guy !!!!" biler kuar ayat tue...
aku tau... kay terlampau marah... and im speechless...
i cant say anything... ms antar kay depan umah dia.....
she hugs me.... waaaa... so touchin...

kay... ainiey....
im so glad to have both of u in my life....
just like wanna hug u rite now....
babes... LUV U SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!

Pissed Off!!!

2008-02-15T11:19:00.004+08:00

WTF!!
WTH!!!
Im really pissed off!!

i dont knoe what 2 say more...
deep inside my heart is only have revenge...
ada org cakap aku nie pendendam....
yeah... bcoz u asked me 2 b like that....

Tatoo

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

That truth is a stranger

Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on

And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back at a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you

I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I gotta be strong

And leave you behind

If I live every moment

Won't change any moment

Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you

Still the memory of you

Marks everything i do

-- Jordin Sparks --

Finally.....

2008-02-13T10:55:00.000+08:00

finally... i have the strength 2 do it...
finally... i feel sooooo relief....
and finally... i have my own life back...
just need 2b strong eno'... rite..??

last nite... goin 2 Bora Ombak..
with ikha n eduardo....
had some chit chat till midnite....

i can feel that my mind, my soul & my body is soooo tired...

i've already move-in 2 Bukit Indah, Ampang...
staying with Kak Zai....
its a place which near 2 KLCC (bout 15 minutes)....
near 2 Old Town White Coffee (bout 5 minutes)...
and the important thing is... its near 2 school (bout 5 minutes)...

^_^

Let it go....

2008-02-12T16:42:00.000+08:00

smalam... after work..
aku gi nengok wayang CJ7 @ TGV KLCC...
with ainiey & wawi...
cter kelakar.. but ader part2 yg menyentuh ati aku...
mula la air mata kuar skit...
sensitif benor aku nie... eheheh
then kitorg gi makan kat Ampang...
having our late dinner....

lepas?
apa yg dilepaskan...??
apa yg dah terlepas???
ehehehe....

dalam idup kiter nie sentiasa dikelilingi oleh perkataan LEPAS...
samada dilepaskan.. or terlepas... or melepaskan...
same goes to me...
even its hard to do it... but i have no choice...
or else.... i will b in a BIG trouble...

thanx to huda ainiyah...
coz bebel kat aku dh baper ari dah & dgr apa sjer yg aku nk citer...
and thanx to khariah abd malek...
coz sentiasa dengar & kasik nasihat...
thank u so much dear...

Sudah....

2008-02-11T11:39:00.000+08:00

Salahkah aku

Mencintaimu

Memilikimu

Menyayangimu

Jangan paksakan kita untuk

Slalu bersama

Jangan paksakan kita untuk

Slalu mencinta

Bila kita harus berpisah, sudah

Biarkan ini semua berakhir, sudah

Cinta memang tak harus miliki

ehehe... lagu tema aku skrang nie...
bler dh decide wanna let him go... he wont let me...
bler dia decide wanna let me go... i wont let him...
sampai bler yeak nk jdik camtue... ehehe
pelik kan dunia nie....
tapi manusia di bumi nie kena la berada di alam yg nyata..
especially aku... ^_*

neway... thanx 2 that particular person..
u knoe who u r....

im totally happy with my own life... ^_^

I dont mind....

2008-02-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

u want him...??? just take it...
i dont mind... at ALL !!!
am i mad??? ....nope....
am i jealous?? ....nope....
so... what i'm suppose 2do....???
just let it be....

untitled...

2008-02-02T09:49:00.000+08:00

smalam... ari yg paling menderita bg aku...
sakit sangat... adeeiihhh... for the first time ever aku rser sakit camnie...
slalunye aku boleh tahan... but kali nie...
ohhhh... no... sakit sgt...
pucat abis muka, kaki tgn aku...
utk mengalihkan kesakitan aku.....
aku ajak abg chik ngan anim gi mkn kat luar...
sjer jalan2... at least... tak terasa sangat kesakitan tue...
so... around 8.30 kitorg gi Alamanda Putrajaya....
ada highway bru dr Bkt Jalil... bout 20-30 minutes jer...
tol RM 5, pegi-balik...

arini... still terasa lagik sakit....
but not as bad as yesterday..
today's plan..... going out with Kak Zai & Ed....
to KLCC... Kinokuniya 2b exact.... need 2 buy books with the voucher...
then gi G.S. Gill coz Ed wanna buy sports stuff...
then gi IKEA & IKANO... jln2....
panjang sungguh langkah aku.... ehehehe

2mrw... gi ngk wayang... with somebody @ KLCC...
eheheheh.... ^_^

My x-lecturer Juwahir...

2008-01-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

smalam... aku call juwahir...
juwahir was my lecturer during degree time @ uitm puncak perdana...
need his help, as my referee....
lepas jer aku kenalkan diri aku....
dia trus tanya... psal huda ainiyah & kay.... eheheh...
aku tak kisah sangat menda tue...
masa aku nk jer hang-up, dia tanya aku satu soalan maut...
"sper nama budak gombak tue... dia buat apa sekrang.."
alamak... soalan itu yg dia tanya...
bler aku jawap... then ada jugak balasan dr juwahir...
"i ingatkan korang ada affair.... itu yg i tanya..."
ampes jer juwahir...

walaupun aku dh lama tak jumper dia... dan tak penah contact ngan dia pun since 2004... dia still boleh ingat aku & plus ingat pulak kisah aku dulu2... ampes jer.... itula dinamakan lecturer... sampai aku sendrik confius... obvious sangat ker aku ngan that guy dulu???

tapi sekrang dah takder lagik....
ehehehehe...
smuanya dah berubah.... ppl will change in a blink... rite?
simple conversation.... but yet.....recalled all of it...

next week... i have to see juwahir... mati la aku...
apa pulak la dia nak basuh aku... ehehehe....

Mama & Abah was here...!!!!

2008-01-28T09:11:00.000+08:00

last weekend... mama ngan abah datang sini nengok si kenit Maia...
came along with Aqil & Muneera...
last weekend... kitorg berkumpul ramai2 umah abg chik...
abg, kak leen, myra pun ada....
rser cam tak lengkap jer bler akak xder...
and plus terasa kekurangan bler arwah abg ngah pun dh xder...
sedih jugak bler pikir...

last weekend mmg khas tuk family aku...
xkuar gi keja... takder lepak2 ngan member2...
ehehhehe... jdik budak baik aku sekejap... =P

apa2 pun... im happy last weekend....
^_^

Just Ignore...

2008-01-25T12:31:00.000+08:00

i've decided to ignore...
just ignore....
yeah... thats the thing i should do...
but can i ??

sure u can, marcilla.... ^_^
gambatte kudasai....

Kisahnye semalam....

2008-01-23T11:56:00.000+08:00

smalam... i am really tired.... aku sdrik tatau naper...
for the first time spanjang aku keja kat sekolah nie,
aku tak senyum kat org.... mmg xlarat sangat...
mcm2 yg ada lam otak aku nie... jiwa kaco??? ntahla.. biasa jer...

kuar sek kol 5.15 pm, gi kedai Tomyam kat ngan Mak Jah...
lepak2 ngan Kak Zai.. aku dpt tau kata Acheraf admitted @ Geleneagle Med Centre...
called him.. dia kena bacterial infection... agak teruk...
yg sedihnye biler dia cakap... "Im alone rite now..." huhu
will visit him this evening....

then, kol 6.30 pm... i've met someone @ spacc ampang...
again minum2 @ area MakJah with someone....
straight away balik umah abg chik nengok maia...
kol 9 pm, aku gi umah... dah 3 ari since ari ahad aritue temankan kay...
ada ainiey lak.... ainiey bru jer balik dr Bali & dpt something from ainiey...
thanx ainiey... kitorg gi makan satay PakDin @ kg baru till midnite....
ehehhe... kena bebel la aku ngan ainiey... berkurun xjumper dia....
ehehehe sorry yayang...

penat sangat semalam... ngan badan tak sihat....
arinie feelin better.... alhamdulillah....
tapi kena dtg keja gak... sorting all of the old books, prepare for Jumbo Book Sale 2morrow..

Re-Format my Brain...

2008-01-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

smalam dh kena brain wash ngan kay....
so secara tak langsung.... otak aku dh separuh di format kan....
the whole nite.... aku format otak aku jdik kosong....
coz of... i need a fresh brain nowadays to maintain my emotion...
im doin the defragmenting... scanning.... and eleminate all the virus, worms & bugs..
so... this morning... i looks so tired.....
i've done the formatting process but i didnt install all the drivers....
ehehehe... do i need an installer for my brain..?
of course la kan.....
but i cant find whats suite in my brain...

apa yg aku merapu nie.... marci oooo marci....
eheheheh...... i need to find the new version of all the software...
it will takes a long time to update my brain as well...

kay said...
"u have promised to urself.. not to me or to ainiey...."
yeah... i knoe sayang... thanx for the reminder...

i wont cry anymore... there's no jiwa kaco again....
^_^

WaNNa CRY... ahaks

2008-01-21T15:06:00.000+08:00

Tiada bintang

Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicelah

Bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri

Aku tetap begini

Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku

Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku

*Bahagia kau dan fikiranmu

Berbeza

Kau dan juga aku

Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Apakah aku

Hanya boneka yang sering engkau mainkan

Yang dikawal oleh jari-jarimu

Ku punya hati dan perasaan pernahkah engkau fikirkan

Cukup cukup oh cukuplah

Tak faham tak faham

Tak dapat ku faham

Melayan sikapmu perawan

Berbeza-berbeza

Kau dan aku berbeza

Kita memang tak serupa

Bebaskan bebaskan

Kunci dilepaskan

Kita tidak sehaluan

Cukuplah sudahlah

Sampai di sini saja

Hubungan kita berdua

Hoa...hoa....hoa.....

it's just like i wanna cry.. ahaks...
'abang' ada pesan kat aku... "plz dont cry infront of any man.."
ok abang... i'll follow ur words.... ^_^

i've got a warning from one of my fren (considering that she's my fren... eheh)
"beware ngan dia... dia tue bukan manusia.. dia tue buaya..."
yupps... i need to beware or just leave him...??
if i leave him... i need to ignore what's deep inside my heart....
huh!

somebody...!!!! help me.....!!!!
i wanna cry.....

LoVe..

2008-01-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

"Love", love is blind

Are we blind?

Blinded by the touch of love

Is it our agony feelings?

That is making us fall into depths of love

The extend of intellectual penetration

Is taking us far, far away from noticing the tru meaning of love

It's taking us to another galaxy

An outer space far from the unknown

We are falling into this deep in encounter

Hard to explain

Love too powerful to deny

Too hard to admit its power

but this is how we describe it

love an extraterrestrial thing

My Heart My Soul My Passion

by Natasha Hudson

smalam.. ms mencari2 buku nk pinjam....

ternampak 1 buku "My Heart My Soul My Passion" by Natasha Hudson..

actly its a collection of poems from her...

it's written by herself... most of it, mmg makan dlm maksud dia...

tepat terkena diri aku sendrik..

Love... eheheh =p

Bz??

2008-01-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

Ramai jgak yg crik aku rupanya...
Sememangnya saat ini aku hanya menyepikan diri dr smua org...
nper yeak...??
is it bcoz i am too bz...??
yeah im quite bz nowadays....
i've got an assistant but.....
it seems like i dont hv any...
i am too tired to think....
bout my life, myself, my stuff, my frens, my love story...

rite now, i always 2 sigh & says 'aiyooo'...
Acheraf will always complain.. "plz dont say aiyoo.. u're so typical..."
ehehehe... sorry la Acheraf... u need 2 get used of it...

skrang nie aku rser nk nangis.. gelak... tergolek... terguling...
smuanye ada... i knoe there's someone who always b there 4 me...
but can he manage his life just for me??? ehehehe...
i dont think so.... but its ok for me...
coz rite now, i just wanna concentrate bout my future...
wish me luck!! ^_^

untitled

2008-01-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

Monday (07th January 2008)
agak sekian lama aku tak jumper my very best buddies; Kay & Ainiey..
masing2 bz or aku sorg yg bz ??? i dont knoe..
so, mlm tue aku gi jumper diorg kat Kg Baru..
aku telah disoal siasat!!!!! hahahaha....

credits to Kay coz sanggup dgr segala benda &
gimme ur opinion & also always b by my side... thanx dude... =P

Tuesday (8th January 2008)
dr pg aku dh tak sedap perut.. perut memulas2..
tepat kol 4 aku balik umah...
sampai umah, aku dok guling2 dpn tv sesorang...
kol 11.30 pm, abg chik sampai umah & trus bwk gi jumper doc kat Sri Petaling...
"FOOD POISONING" terpaksa menelan 4 jenis ubat..

Wednesday (9th January 2008)
still gi kerja walaupun ada MC..
perut still tak stable lg tp disebabkan aku kena settle byk benda
& plus, my assistant baru lgik.. apa2 pun aku amik half day..
pg2 aku brief memana yg patut to my asst..
jumper Datin Christie regarding the books exhibition by
Oxford Press UK next week.. then, aku kena update website sekolah..
upload Academic Calendar & monthly menu...
kol 12.30 pm, aku balik umah... tido sampai maghrib..
received a call from Kay, ajak gi lepak2 ngan Ainiey mlm tue...
sorry sayang... im not feelin well... need to stay @ home..
perut ms tue still raser memulas.. maybe next time..

notes to Kay & Ainiey:"dear... im so sorry... aku xleh nk join korg cam slalu..
i cant even manage myself rite now.. not to say jiwa kaco but got somethin need
2b settle down... thanx babes coz always b by my side whenever i need both of u...
LUV YA!!!!!"

Gifts...

2008-01-06T09:51:00.000+08:00

lately nie, aku ada dpt gifts since christmas aritue...
sblm christmaas, aku dpt one box of ferrero roche...
during hari raya, Kak Leen (my sis-in-law) gave a body splash "Victoria's Secret Garden"..
b4 that my another sis-in-law, anim gave me Davidoff Eau de Toilette...
it's my bday gift actly.. ehehehe
a few days ago, Yolanda came 2 me & gave a bangle, she said "just a lil' christmas gift 4 u"
then... cam another teacher... he gave me a pair of bangle... ehehhe...
i dont knoe why he gave it 2 me....
then, yesterday.... acheraf came 2 me & gave a box of choc from France...
i luv the choc very much! such a bitter-sweet choc...

seumur idup aku... bout 27 yrs old... aku tak dpt byk adiah sgt..
let me list... im trying very hard to remember every single thing...

1. Golden Bracelet
given by someone yg penah baik & rapat lam idup aku long time ago... aku paling sayang adiah nie... @ my bday 2005

2. Flowers
2 bouquet of flowers during my diploma's graduation day by family (2001)....
3 roses from my x-bf during diploma's graduation day (2001)...
1 red rose during Valentine's Day (2006)

3. frangrance
Perfume from Indo given my arwah abg ngah... (1995) for my 15th bday...
Issey Miyake from anim
Davidoff Cool Water from anim
Victoria's Secret Garden from Kak Leen

4. Teddy Bear... this is my fav part.. ehehe i luv teddy so much,,
Pooh the Bear
the big Mashimoro
Koala Bear from Aussie
Brown Bear (i like this bear very much!)

itu jer la yg aku igt buat sementara nie...
gots a few gift that i've returned it back to the owner...
golden, silver & white gold rings and also aussie opal....
coz i dont wanna keep it.. just let the memories gone 4ever... =P

i've been disturbed.... =(

2008-01-04T09:41:00.000+08:00

last nite around 3.45 am i've been disturbed by somebody...
quite a long time since i've back 2 single, i didnt receive any midnite calls...
bout 10 minutes coversation...

Him : Hello...
Me : Hello... sper nie....
Him : u dh xkenal i??
(tgh penin2 & blur... at last aku bru dpt recall suara makhluk itu..)
Him : u marah i lagik ker?
Me : nie apahal pg2 buta call i tanya i marah ke tak... (dlm ati... gilo apo budak nie... ngantuk!!!)
Him : i need ur opinion... xtau la u still marah i ke x? (lebih kurg la ayat dia..)
me : ooo.. cakap jer la apa yg u nk tanya...
Him : xperla.. mayb i kaco u...
Me : nk ckp, ckp jer la..... (dlm ati... adeeiihh budak nie... pg2 buta dh kasik ati aku panas...)
Him : what will u do... if u a guy, ur gf go out with her x-bf quite a long time but didnt tell u & lied 2 u??
Me : (dlm ati... aiyooohhh... pg2 buta tanya soal ati & perasaan la pulak..) u mean that, the guy is u rite?? if i were u... i'll talk 2 her... ksik ayat2 yg makan dlm & 1 day she will regret those thing...
Him : itula yg Nina buat kat i dulu... i frust.. & rite now, i just came back from Langkawi... How r u?? Hows ur work..?
me : rite now, im sleepy.. ngantuk.. my work... ok... i kerja everyday including saturday & sunday....
Him : work on saturday & sunday..??
Me : yeah.. its by my choice...
Him : hows ur bf ??
Me : (giggle) my bf? u call i pg2 nie tanya psal my bf..?? do i have any bf?? i mana ada bf.. still single... okla... i wanna sleep..
Him : ala.. kejap jer.. bout half an hour...
Me : better u hang-up b4 i ngamuk... i ngantuk sangat.. 2morrow need to wake up early....
Him : ok... bye!

if u read this entry... plz dont disturb me again @ midnite...
i need my time 2 take a rest... and plus.... plz have some respect 2 me...

Let's play with the quiz...

2008-01-03T14:04:00.000+08:00

1. How old will you be in 10 months?
~ twenty seven

2. Do you think you will get marriedby then?
~ i dont think so...!

3. What do you look forward to most inthe next 3 months?
~ march 2008... ermm... nothin in plan..

5. Who was the last person to call you?
~ Mr s... hehehe...

6. Do you prefer to call or text?
~ text... cz u can reply if u want 2 & just ignore if gettin bored

7. Do you have any pets?
~ couple of tortoise... (actly they belongs 2 my bro... ehehe )

8. What were you doing at 12am lastnight?
~ sleep...

9. Were you alone ?
~ yupps

10. How was your day ?
~ quite good after seein somebody =P

11. What happened at 11:00a.m?
~ training kat office..beshnye dpt blk office!

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, orbare feet?
~ bare feet.. feels so great!!

15. Are you a social person?
~ think so... am i ?? ehehe

16. What was the last thing you ate?
~ Vaade..

17. What’s your favourite ice cream?
~ papermint!

18. What is your favorite dessert?
~ choc mud cake

20. What kind of jelly do you like on your sandwich?
~ i dont like jelly....

21. Do you like coffee?
~ YES if it's ice blended mocha... but i'd prefer tea rather than coffee..

22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average??
~ 10 glasses

23. What do you drink in the morning?
~ tea

24. Would you rather sleep withsomeone else or alone?
~ i dont like 2 sleep alone... anybody wanna accompany me??? HAHAHAHA

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
- next to the wall...

26. Do you know how to play poker?
~ nope...

27. Do you like to cuddle?
~ absolutely YES!!!

28. Have you ever been to Canada?
~ YES.. just in my dreams.. wkakakaakaka.....

29. Do you eat out or at home moreoften?
~ out...

30. Do you know anyone with the samecharacter as margaret tatcher the ex-PM of UK ?
~ whose margaret tatcher

31. Do you speak any other language?
~ Nope.. just english & malay

34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
~ nope

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
~ ocean.. i luv the ocean..

36. Do you prefer a window seat or anaisle seats?
~ window seat..

37. Do you know how to drive a stickshift?
~ not expert... still learning.

38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
~ food...

39. Do you wear any jewelery 24/7?
~ earrings but not 24/7

40. What is your favourite TV show?
~ CSI & House....

41. Can you roll your tongue?
~ nope...

42. Who is the funniest person you know?
~ there's lot of ppl who r funny.. i dont know whose the funniest among them... =P

45. Do u have any clothes from when you were little?
~ nope... kemana2 ntah bju2 lama aku tue....

46. What is the color of your bedroom?
~ pink + ocean blue

48. Do you sleep with your closetdoors opened or closed?
~ of coz it's closed....

49. Would you rather be attacked by abig bear or a swarm of killer bees?
~ a big bear... i can hug him.. ehehehe

50. Do you flirt a lot?
~ sort of.. ehehehe

*got it from Wanie's blog... ^_*

Decision in Life...

2008-01-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

apa sjer lam dunia nie needs a decision... the decision is in our hands....
bak kata pepatah melayu, "Tepuk Dada, Tanya Selera" and some may says "Tepuk Dada, Tanya Hati"..

slalunyer aku susah nk buat pilihan...
bler tanya Hati & Perasaan... ada yg berjalan ngan lancar & ada jgak yg end-up ngan kekecewaan yg melampau.....
kali nie aku dah xtau nk buat pilihan...
bak kata kak zai... dia suh aku buat solat istikarah...
persoalannye, layak ke aku???
sesaper yg rapat ngan aku... tau la aku nie camner...

ssh jugak biler jgak bler jdik camnie...
apa2 pun aku tetap happy ^_^
aku smakin happy bler dpt jumper somebody walaupun dia agak kepenatan coz just came back from his hometown which is far away from m'sia.... ehehehe.... ^_*

Clumsy

2008-01-02T08:23:00.000+08:00

bler jejak ke thn 2008 nie... macam2 otak aku plan...
smalam got a message from one of chatters

"the great idea for the new year....
> Upgrade yourself
> New ways to live longer
> Boost your brainpower
> Sleep better
> Make more money
Happy New Year"

msg yg buat aku tersenyum....
aku ada terdengar lagu Fergie - Clumsy.... eheheheh....
lyric dia best ^_^ lagu tema early new year..

The first time, that I saw your eyes

Boy, you looked right through me, mmm mmmm

Played it cool, but I knew you knew

That cupid hit me, mmm mmm

[Chorus:]You got me trippin' (oh), stumblin' (oh)

Flippin' (oh), fumblin' (so)

Clumsy 'cuz I'm fallin' in love (in love)

You got me slippin' (oh), tumblin' (oh)Sinkin' (oh), crumblin' (so)

Clumsy 'cuz I'm fallin' in love (in love)

So in love with you

You know this ain't the first time this has happened to me

This love sick thing

I like serious relationships and uh

A girl like me don't stay single for long'

Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break-up

My world is crushed and I'm all alone,

The love bug comes right back and bites me

And I'm back

Clumsy by Fergie

GoodBye 2007... WELCOME to this world 2008....

2007-12-31T08:32:00.001+08:00

2day is the last day for 2007....
smua radio station citer benda2 yg jdik spanjang 2007...

what happen in my life @ 2007...??
eheheh... biasalakan... bler ada bad things mestila ada the good things...
spanjang thn nie...

3 company aku keja lam masa sethn... MMC (N) - as lecturer, Century Software - as Assistant Consultant and MIGS - as Librarian
vacations - Kuching, Sarawak... Pulau Langkawi, Kedah... Pulau Kapas, Terengganu....
thn nie paling banyak jumper org... lots of new frens....
thn nie aku smakin agree dgn wordings "Dont Judge The Books by Its Cover'....
cinta ??? hahaha.... benda yg paling aku benci skrang nie... hati aku bagaikan mati... ntahla.. its hard 2 say...
pengorbanan yg paling besar, aku buat seumur idup aku... wasted camtue jer... penghinaan yg paling teruk aku terima spanjang idup aku... huh! its ok.. i can take it.. what past is past.. rite???

2008....

aku tak reti nak berazam cam org lain... tapi sudah semestinya dalam hati akan terdetik satu rasa untuk meng'improve' diri sendrik dr pelbagai segi.... dan insyaAllah, bulan 4 aku akan gi Sabah (but still not confirm yet coz ada org suggest nk gi Bali) with all the staff @ MIGS as company trip and go to Kuching, Sarawak (again ???!!) with Kay, Ainiey & Wawi on 28/06/2008 till 30/06/2008 (ticket dah book! credits to Ainiey ^_^)... yg lain2 tue.. still inside my mind... idup mesti ada perancangan kalo tak sia2 jer aku blajar Project Management ngan PakLah (Mr Abdullah Abd Rahman - Lecturer IS221) dulu... thanx PakLah atas ilmu yg anda berikan walaupun stiap kali class aku dok buat menda lain... ehehehe....

ceriakan hari anda dengan senyuman ^_^

Nangis..

2007-12-29T11:16:00.000+08:00

Let's talk 'bout crying....
smua manusia pernah menangis..
bohong la kalo kata tak penah....

aku..?
ehehe... aku mmg senang nk nangis...
nengok citer cartoon "Finding Nemo" pun aku nangis...
kat part mak Nemo mati... itu yg sedih tue... touchin..
tapi yg peliknye, waktu abg ngah meninggal last year...
aku tak nangis langsung... setitik air mata pun tak kuar...
errrmmm... pelik... tapi rser sedih tue.. jgn citer la....

paling teruk aku nangis.... 3 ari 3 malam...
nangis sampai bengkak2 mata... itu yg paling teruk...
sebab..?? masa tak jdik nk kawen... huhu...

skrang nie... stiap kali idun aku merah coz of flu, anim akan tanya "ina nangis ker"
aku slalu gelak jer... tak semestinye mata & idun aku merah tue aku nangis...
eheheh...

masa kecik2 dulu... abg2 aku slalu gelakkan aku tiap kali aku nangis...
diorang panggey aku clown... lagik la aku nangis kuat.... ehehehe...
even skrang nie pun... aku senang sangat nk nangis...
hati aku terlalu fragile.... benda kecik2 pun boleh nangis....
cam budak2 jer aku nie kan... ehehehe....

ada org kata kalo lelaki nangis, tak macho... lelaki tak boleh nangis...
saper kata...??? lelaki pun manusia jugak...
sepanjang idup aku.... dh jumper lelaki yg nangis...
tapi tatau la diorang nangis betul2 ker ataupun sekadar nk simpati...
pelik tapi itu adalah benar....

Back from holiday....

2007-12-27T11:07:00.000+08:00

arinie, aku dh masuk office eventho' sekrang nie aku annual leave till 30/12...
smalam baru sampai dr kg... keja banyak sihhh.....
tapi yg bestnye biler keja di waktu kiter cuti.... aku leh bangun lambat...
sesuka ati nk kuar gi makan... and sesuka ati nk balik bebiler...
itu yg best... eheheh...

apa yg meng'happy'kan diri aku sekrang nie???
ermmm.. let me think.....

there's one person who will call me or msg me even he's far away from Malaysia...
there's another person who will msg me at least once in a day...
i have so many frens who always care bout me...
i hv my family who always b with me no matter what esp my mama & abah...

i think its enough for me.....

life is not cincai.. life is not complicated... life is not easy.. life is not a job... life is not gamble... what is life ??? whatever it is... we have to create our life 2b alive... life isnt complete without love....

bak kata one of my friends @ indonesia.. manusia bisa mati kalau tidak punya cinta... yeah... that's true... aku agreed.....

Bubbly...

2007-12-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

I've been awake for a while now

you've got me feelin like a child now

cause every time i see your bubbly face

i get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toesmakes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes i always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane

but we are hidin in a safer place

under the covers stayin dry and warm

you give me feelins that i adore

What am i gonna say

when you make me feel this way

I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

I've been asleep for a while now

You tucked me in just like a child now

Cause every time you hold me in your arms

Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth
It starts in my soul

And I lose all control

When you kiss my nose

The feelin shows

Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time

Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go?

Bubbly by Colbie Caillat

lagu yg jdik tema idup aku sekrang nie... heheheh.....

nice song & nice lyric.....

Raya & Holiday... ^_*

2007-12-23T20:27:00.000+08:00

last wednesday...
after office hour.. went out & met someone @ Old Town White Coffee Ampang..
around 6.30 pm.. aku bertolak from Ampang trus nk balik Taiping.. setelah meredah about 7 hours, aku berjaya sampai umah... rser nak patah kaki aku waktu tue... sampai umah tepat 1.30 am.. ngantuk & lapar... sib baik la along the way, ada org sanggup temankan aku walaupun hanya bermessage, at least aku tak tertido sambil bawak keta... eheheh... nak teman balik umah... aku lak tak berani nk bawak balik... =P

Raya....
aku dok umah sepanjang hari.... bosan gilos.... dgn bdn yg tak sihat... dan aku dilarang dr melakukan aktiviti2 yg akan membuatkan badan aku semakin lemah... itu yg menambahkan lagik kebosanan aku....

asal badan aku lemah??? ntahla... aritue aku takleh nafas.. sesak nafas, rser cam ada benda block saluran pernafasan aku... after dpt oksigen, im feelin better... and again.. kali nie aku rser camtue lagik skali... sememangnye lately nie aku exhausted.. byk benda kena settle..

ingatkan aku balik kali nie nk buat BBQ with all my x-students DMT 7 but... im so sorry... aku dilarang sama skali untuk mengaktifkan diri aku.. aku hanya dibenarkan untuk kuar dan lepak2.. hanya aktiviti yg paling minimum dibenarkan... u're sooooooo mean... =(

Holiday...
holiday apa nye... aku dok umah jer dr pagi sampai malam... kalo dh tahap kebosanan yg melampau, aku akan ajak Aniq & Marsya temankan aku gi Tesco takpun Giant... eheheh... apala yg ada kat sini...

walaupun cuti aku secara rasminye sampai 30/12.. tapi aku akan balik ke KL this Wednesday (26/12) coz need to settle my work b4 31/12... its ok... aku leh gi office lambat... ehehe.... balik lak sesuka ati aku... itu yg best biler kerja waktu cuti...

Notes:
1. DMT7
Im so sorry to all of you... sorry for the BBQ... mayb next time.. tapi kiter still leh lepak2 kat memana...

2. someone.. (u knoe who u r)
alamak... it happens so fast... but if possible i wanna back-off b4 its too late... we both have to sacrifice in many ways.. i dont think we can... but we still can enjoy every single moment 2gether rite.. eheh.. am i so mean?? for me.. the answer is nope.. like ed said b4.. its not our fault if we're in luv..

3. ima...
thanx ima.. coz always b my side when i need u most.. thanx for the time, bout 2 hours on the phone... thank you dearie... luv ya!

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa AidilAdha... MeRRY CHRiSTMaS...

2007-12-19T10:01:00.001+08:00

to all muslim... Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha....
especially to Kak Zai, Ikha, Kak Limah, Datin Asiah, Kay, Ainiey & all muslims..
sesaper yg balik raya malam nie... (termasuk aku la tue... ehehe)
drive carefully... hv a safe journey....
jgn bwk laju2.... nnt tak pasal2 raya kat spital....

to all Christianist.... MeRRY CHRiSTMaS..!!!
goes to... Raj, Vincent, Anushia, Eduardo, Ruhama, Elisa, Renz & everybody who celebrate it....

aku dpt cuti til 30th December 2007...
ehehehe.. layan cuti nampaknye kali nie...

last nite, got a message from Mr Vincent...
"What do u want from Santa?"
aku reply... "I wanna choc.. ehehe"
so just now, Mr Vincent kasik aku choc Ferro Roche...
hahahhaa... during our lunch, he said that he wanna be a Santa this Christmas...
aiyoohh... our Zorro turns to Santa.. i cant imagine how's Mr Vincent look like if he's wearing the outfit... hahaha... so kelakar la you Mr Vincent......

about 30 minutes to go...
ehehe.. tak sabarnyer nak sampai taiping...
lama dah tak balik... rindu sama si ketot Aqil...
^_*

Cheap, Light & Easy...

2007-12-18T11:19:00.000+08:00

"what you want prove actually? young, vibrant, centre of men attention, cheap?"

wooo... berasap telinga aku... hurrrmmm....
aku marah jgak tapi better just keep silent...
is it my fault?? mayb lil' bit but...
huh!

im just piss off!
they just say whatever they wanna say...
do they think bout me?
deep inside me... deep down me...

*sigh

thoughts...

2007-12-17T08:13:00.000+08:00

everyday... i'll get at least 1 msg from my frens...
terharu sebenarnye... walaupun msg tue simple such as "Hi.. How r u?"
hehe... simple but yet, im still hv somebody who cares bout me...

my 'abang', eduardo... went back to his homwtown @ phillipines...
'adik' (ikha) & me, dh takleh nk lepak2 kat Old Town White Coffee dah...
we gonna miss u abang...

im betting with abg & adik... ^_*
i'll win yeah!!

Fallin Luv???

2007-12-15T10:47:00.000+08:00

apa yg korg rser bler fallin luv...
happy ?? takut ?? risau ??
ehehehe....

im pretty sure that... smua org akan rser happy bler fall-in-luv...
but me ?? aku takut... bout 6 months i've been single since 20th July 2007...
huhu sedih jer bler pikir balik apa yg jdik...
at this moment.. aku dh tak kisah... what past is past...
xguna nangis melalak, abis mata bengkak2, keja tunggang terbalik...
alhamdulillah since the day... aku dpt life aku balik.. rantai yg ikat kaki aku dh ilang...
seronok sgt cz i can be what i wanna be.. i can go where ever i wanna go... i can hanging out with my frens esp kay & ainiey... that's sound so great rite?

rite now.... adeeiihhh.. its difficult to explain...
life is always unfair....
bak kata Raj... "nie soal hati"...
yeah... that's true... its all about your heart...
this kinda situation just like a disaster...
bak kata Kak Zai... "ko nie cam dok atas time bomb.."
hahahah... that's is also true.....
buatnyer aku kena parang... confirm jadik headline newspaper.... =P

tapi... kalo ikut kata hati aku....
ala lepak la.... long way to go...
asal nk kecoh2... aku just kawan jer...
kalo ada extra... maybe its a bonus for me....
hahaha.. gilo apo aku pikir camtue....

just let it be...
yeah... that's true...
bak kata Shahul, "what will happen, it will happen.... "

thanx dudes....
quotes yg korang kasik kat aku....
itula yg aku pegang sekrang nie....

bak kata eduardo...
"Dont let urself b stopped by anythin 4m doin what u hv always wanted. we r all afraid of not fittin in2 this world of not bein accepted. but it only takes 4 u 2 look around & figure out that u surrounded by ppl who loves u unconditionally. feel free 2 make mistake. celebrate life bcoz if u shrug them away, the ppl who loves u will always choose 2 stay."

bak kata vincent...
"Remember that there will always b someone who remembers u everyday with or without messages"

Things to update in my life...

2007-12-12T15:23:00.000+08:00

last Friday... i've won for the 3rd place... Badminton Tournament..... ehehehe... terkejut gak aku.... Shahul & me got a hamper, $50 voucher of Archery @ Maju Junction Mall & $10 voucher of Bollywood Restaurant... its worth it rite?? im sooo happy...

last Saturday... got a msg from Vincent... "Hope that u will join our MIGS badminton club next term. MIGS will sponsor 2 hours every week @ KDE.. every friday.. time 2b confirmed, maybe @ 4 pm.." that's great!!! i can play badminton every week... ehehehe...

can u fall-in-luv in just 2 days???
huh! im sick bout it... just gettin tired & bored...

i cant think rite now...

2007-12-12T09:52:00.001+08:00

smua menda bersesak2 lam otak aku...
smua menda berebut2 nk dptkan tpt lam pemikiranku...
kalo la aku boleh cakap ngn menda2 tue... dh lama dh aku suh beratur elok2.. cam nk naik bus tue... jgn dok berebut2... tp masalahnye... menda tue bukannye cam manusia.. leh beratur2... menda tue adalah benda... benda yg complicated...

nper la life aku nie complicated...
life nie complicated ker aku yg jadikkan dia complicated..???
ssh gak tue nk differentiate... ehehehe

apa yg aku perlu buat...
first thing first... tp mslhnye takder istilah cam gitu...
smua benda sekrang nie penting... smua benda kena buat...
aduilaaa....

mcm2 benda kena pikir.....
keja... life... my aim... cinta... kengkawan....
aku dh jdik addicted dh sekrang....
lg byk aku pikir... lg teruk aku rosakkan diri aku...

ada org merayu... "pls.. promise 2 me that u'll never do it again.."
pedulik apa aku... biarla... aku dh malas nk pikir...
aku nk jdik camner sekalipun aku dh tak pedulik...
ada ke org pedulik ttg aku... yg ada pun hanyalah yg nak marah aku... yg nk blame aku... yg bebel kat aku... penah ker diorang tanya aku naper aku jadik camtue... sudah la... im sick bout it... jgn la suka sangat blame aku.. jahat sgt ker aku sampaikan smua benda yg jadik lam idup aku atau ada kaitan ngan org lain, salah aku...

one guy said 2 me... "u terlalu baik.. itu sbb org lain slalu take for granted kat u.."
aku camtue ker?? ntahla... aku rser aku nie biasa jer... cuma cepat kesian kat org...

aku dh malas nk pikir... sesak sgt otak aku...
dh cam traffic jam dah nie... eheheh...

*today is someone's birthday... wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY... eventho' he might b not seen this msg... hopefully he will get what he is always wanted...

Derek & Meredith "I Fought The Angels"

2007-12-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

I fought the angels here today
Hope my defeat will end this play
Everybody knows that
I only have myself to blame
Everybody knows that
Softly softly wins the game

Trust
I'll try to learn again
My words are seldom for a friend

Knew at the time that they came out
Wish I could have them disallowed
Everybody knows that
We say things we do not mean
Everybody jnows that
We say things that are unclean

Trust
I'll try to learn again
My words are seldom for a friend

Run conversations in my head
Write my own scripts to dish the dread
And if I speak out loud
I will have to change the rules
For speaking's out of bounds
If it's practised by a fool

Trust
I'll try to learn again
My words are seldom for a friend
So lend me an ear to lean upon
To speak to and learn my speaking from

mkn dalam sihh lg nie.... lots of unexpected thing happen in my life nowadays...
*sigh

Last Day School @ MIGS..

2007-12-07T08:41:00.000+08:00

2day is the last day school for students....
2day we gonna have Character Dress-up for students and parents..
Datin Asiah will be a Cruela.. eheheh... and me???
suppose aku kena take part but lots of work 2do so, aku pun xleh la nk joint... slamat... eheheh... arinie smua org akan bz... aku incharge psal prizes...
petang nie, we have a semi-finale badminton tournament...
shahul & me will against vincent & mrs john... eheheh
confirm kalah tue.. =p it's just for fun..

aku dh jatuh cinta ngan ayam bakar wong solo.... hahahah...
sedap sihh... my angels... ainiey & kay... jom mkn kat sana lak...
kiter tukar tpt lepak lak... eheheh...

Things 2b settle b4 Friday..

2007-12-05T15:10:00.000+08:00

lots of thing 2b settle b4 Friday....
need 2b list or else... ermm.. u knoe la... ppl cant remember so many things..
everything such a mess 2 me...

get the RM260 Kinokuniya books voucher from Liesl. DONE
go 2 Kinokuniya with Sylvia & Kak Zai 2 buy 21 books for the the books week's prize.. DONE
update the school's website. DONE
create rossettes for parents & teachers, foundation, yr 1 till yr 6 DONE
prepare/wrap the prizes.... 21 books, 8 vouchers of RM 20 DONE
collect all the deskcopies & reference book from teachers
prepare tables @ school hall DONE

on my birthday... =P

2007-12-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my birthday...
since 1998 till 2006... aku akn celebrate with my special ones...
but this year.. i dont have any... so.. aku celebrate only with my frens...

smalam.... apa yg meng'happy'kan diri aku...

got 22 messages from my frens, my x-students, my colleagues & mama
got a cake from lil' gurl.. thank you so much Jessica..
ada sorg teacher blanje aku makan @ Wong Solo... its a nice food.. suka lak aku makan ayam kg bakar... ehehe... will go there next time...
around 7.00 pm... met my dearest frens.. Kay & Ainiey... having dinner with them and also with wawi & acheraf... kali nie.. acheraf lak blanje makan... Kay & Ainiey brought cakes from Secret Recipe.. thanx alot my frens... luv u sooooo much...!! muaahh muahh...
got a birthday present from Anim.. my sis-in-law.. she gave me Davidoff Cool Water eau de toilette.. luv it ! ^_^
at nite... got a msg from my old fren... =P igt jgak dia kat aku yeak...

there's something yg take-away my mood last nite.. it's all about the car... the accident.. its not my fault... errrmm... its sooooo unfair... but... still.. aku kena betulkan keadaan yg ada sekrang nie... rite now... i knoe... benda kecik leh jdik besar eventho' its not our fault... its ok coz i believe there is must be a way to fix-up all this thing...

this week, im soooo bz... bz with my work.. need 2 prepare 21 books for the Book Week's Prizes.. seems like 24 hours is not enough for me to settle everything..

im getting older... huhu!!

2007-12-04T12:08:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to me...
Happy birthday to ME....
happy birthday to me... lalalalal... =P

eheheh.. today is my birthday.. it's a BIG DAY !!!!
im getting OLDER... huhu....

smalam aku tido awal sgt... ehehe penatla....
byk keja.. then after keja gi lepak2 kat Kopitiam Ampang Jaya with ikha, eduardo & acheraf...
bgn jer pagi nie... i've looked at my phone... got 22 messages... WOW! ehehe...

i dont have any plan for today...
ehehe... just wanna lepak2 with frens... maybe...
whatever it is.. may my dreams will true.. amin...

Bad Things Comes Along With the Good Things....

2007-12-02T11:48:00.000+08:00

*sigh...

Good Things

the Badminton Tournament... im IN to the semi-finale... the next match will against En Jaafar & Kak Zai... yippie !!! its so fun.... when i won while against Renz & Kuna...
yesterday (Saturday)... there's a celebration in our school... for the first ever after 10 yrs, im perform a JOGET dance infront of audience.. wakakakak...
i've got so many compliments from the teachers... eheheh... soooo happy....

Bad Things

someone jealous kat aku just coz of aku rapat ngn one of the teacher... adeeiihhh aku mangsa2 gossip lam sekolah nie
last nite... at midnite... while i was driving my car to fetch acheraf... wanna have late supper... somebody hits my car from the back @ traffic light Kg Baru... aiyaaakkk.... actly im driving my brother's car... its not my fault.... =(

Badminton Tournament @ KDE Ampang...

2007-11-30T08:10:00.000+08:00

this evening... for the first time ever... aku masuk Badminton Tournament...
b4 this hanyalah netball & tennis...
bru 2 ari blatih... wakakak... dh la aku tak reti nk main...

first game aku & shahul against ikha & jeevan...
second game kitorg against renz & pn noor...
as everyone knoe... jeevan is a good player...
ehehe... confirm first game dh kalah... tapi tak kisahla kan...
we r playing just for fun.... ^_^

can't wait for the tournament...
yipppiieeee... arinie leh kuar office awal.. =P
pas main badminton... kitorg kena balik sekolah tuk masak2....
prepare for tommorrow...
4 celebration all 2gether..... Hari Raya, Deepavali, Christmas & New Year...

^_*

new staff...

2007-11-28T11:00:00.000+08:00

just got the news from ikha....

"akak... this coming monday, we've got a new staff... the HOT staff.."
ehehehe...

i've met this gurl b4 @ Didi's birthday party..
she's so sexy.. she's gorgeous...
hopefully, diala penyelamat aku... =P

aku sekrang nie, just nk pegi keja balik keja...
i dont wanna get involve to any gossips...
penat dh dok layan karenah orang..
bler aku sembang dgn org nie... org tue jeles...
aku sembg ngn org sinun.. org sinin lak jeles...
rimas gilos... mcm ada bf jer aku nie...

tapi tak kisah la camner pun... yg penting aku happy...
next week, i'll be 27.. huhu... dh tua dh...
bf pun takder lagik... its ok... it is just a number...

yg penting sekrang nie kena kumpul duit byk2....
then move to the next step in my life...
good luck for ME !!!!

GAMBATTE KUDASAI !! hait.. ^_*

am i a work-a-holic ???

2007-11-26T15:07:00.000+08:00

suppose to, aku keja Isnin sampai Jumaat jer... tapi... keadaan sekrang nie... aku keja sampai ahad... sungguh memenatkan.... errmmm...

ari sabtu, aku gi office around 10 am.. buat keja skit then went to Kelab Darul Ehsan @ Ampang coz ader birthday party for DIDI... celebrating her 6th birthday... agak enjoy... ader clown yg leh kasi org ketawa.. ada music yg leh kasi org tak senang duduk... sampaikan ada teachers yg menari.. =P byk jgk aku mkn aritue... rosak diet aku... hahaha... penah ker aku diet??? kelakau lak rasernye bler aku diet...

after that, im going back 2 my office... settlekan memana yg patut... keja lagik.....

ari ahad, kol 2... aku gi office lagik... settle keja lagik... byk tul keja aku... adeeiiihhh... bler la nk dapat assistant nie... sesaper yg nk keja... meh msg aku meh... penat dah aku keja sesorang kat library nie.... sampai kol 7 mlm aku ada kat office... balik umah, sambung buat keja... till midnite...

the question is... am i a work-a-holic person??? i can feel that my body can't stand with it anymore... eventho' i eat alot, still my body feels very very weak.. aiyooohhh.. what happen..??? somebody ask me, why im having this kinda life style... i dont know... i just wanna let go whats inside my mind actly... but i cant... *sigh...

im getting crazy rite now....
uwwaaaaaa...

Behind The Eyes...

2007-11-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

bout a man...

2007-11-22T13:43:00.001+08:00

this kinda man who always flirting around..

he likes when gurls craze bout him..

he enjoys when gurls luv him till the death...

he loves when gurls think that he's the MAN...

but he dont wanna have any kind of commitment..

he's prefer to be single till the death just coz of...

he dont want his reputation will fall down...

it means that he dont wanna get married by choice..

cant u imagine that...????

ohhh.... im quite surprise actually..

if u see this guy...

i can call him next to perfect but he's lil' bit fussy, too choosy & have a big egos...

but its ok for me.. coz we're just fren..

im just curious... how come ppl will be just like that...

errmmm... like i said b4...

different ppls may have different thoughts & perspectives...

so... we need 2 respect it... ^_*

hye guys... what goes around comes around...

and some ppl say, what u do u.. u'll get back...

im agreed with it...

"kalo kiter penah buat salah kat org, idup kiter takkan tenteram until kiter bermaaf-maafan ngan org tersebut" keep thinking bout it...

Hari Malang.. =(

2007-11-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

smalam hari yg paling malang lam idup aku..
aku balik keja lam kol 4.30 pm camtue...
sblm balik, lepak2 kat office ngan ikha...
then, bler kak zai dh settle keja aku trus la blk...
ikha pun kunci la office...

sampai jer kat keta baru aku realize yg handphone tertinggal lam office... tak kisah la kan coz bukan ada org nk call aku pun... sejak2 takder bf nie, handphone aku silent jer.. ehehehe.... kalo ada pun hanya la msg... so, takder la heran sangat psal phone nie....

lepas antar kak zai balik, aku trus balik umah...
masa parking keta, aku baru sedar yg kunci rumah pun tertinggal skali ngan phone...
masa tue, Allah sajer la yg tau camner aku rser nk nangis...
bukan nk nangis pasal apa... pasal aku dapat bayangkan yg aku akan dok kat depan apartment tunggu abg chik balik....

dr kol 7 pm until 10.30 pm, aku tunggu abg chik...
dh boleh joint pak guard kat bawah tue...
aku dok berkawad depan umah... dah boring kawad...
aku main naik tangga turun tangga lak... dr G hinggala tingkat 5...
bler dah penat... aku dok bersila kat bawah... ngk keta2 yg masuk...

bler nampak jer keta abg chik... rser cam nk melompat2... ahahaha... kuar dh prangai aku... =P sambil dukung Maia, aku bebel2... yeala... lama giler aku tunggu... sib baik la aku dh makan ngan kak zai sblm balik umah... kalo x, mau lagik bebel aku... eheheh.....

malang sungguh la nasib aku smalam....
itula... slalu sangat careless...
that's one of my bad habits....

Holiday @ Langkawi...

2007-11-20T16:12:00.000+08:00

rancangan ke Langkawi dh jdik kenyataan...

its an adhoc planning tp sgt enjoy...

kitorg bertolak kol 1.30 am @ Saturday... driver bertukar2.. aku, ainiey & wawi.... si kay lak tukang menyembang ngan kitorg...coz dia tak reti bwk keta.. ehehe... around 6.45 am sampai Jetty Kuala Kedah.. aku ngan Kay went to Langkawi.. while ainiey & wawi went 2 their fren's wedding... sampai kat Langkawi around 9.30 am... kol 11 am, gi pusing2 ngan Kay & her bf carik hotel... at last check-in kat City Bayview kat pkn Kuah...

kitorg tak pegi memana pun... sementara tunggu ainiey & wawi sampai, kitorang pusing2 kat Pantai Cenang... aku ngk tpt keja lama aku... sekrang nie dh jdik Kolej Komuniti dah situ... kol 7 pm fetch ainiey & wawi then trus balik hotel... penat gilos... kitorg tido till midnite then kuar gi Pantai Cenang 2 having our late dinner....

Sunday....

pagi2 lagik aku ngan Kay gi Pantai Kok... seronok betul mandi manda kat situ... takder org langsung... hanya aku ngan Kay jer... pantai tue cam kitorang yg punya... hehehe... macam2 aksi dh kuar...

kol 12 check-out then trus kitorg gi Cable Car.... oon the way, brenti jap kat Pantai Pasir Hitam tangkap gambar... ehehe.... balik dr Cable Car around 4 pm, singgah kat supermarket sblah Hotel Langkasuka, borong chocolate... this is my fav part... shopping choc!! =P

naik ferry kol 5.30 pm.. sampai KL around 2 am... waduh! sungguh penat... tapi sangat enjoy...

pada aku... inilah saat yg paling best... coz.. aku bercuti ngan my best frens... Kay & Ainiey 2gether... thank u babes....

Japanese Name

2007-11-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

My japanese name is
藤原 Fujiwara (wisteria fields) 美晴 Miharu (beautiful clear sky).

Hari Yang Indah...

2007-11-16T10:17:00.000+08:00

^_^
aku sangat happy arinie...
I cant wait for 2nite...
sungguh seronok... hahahaha...

ainiey cakap aku cam budak2.... is it??? =P
aku mmg slalu camnie...
bler dapat jenjalan.. confirm muka aku ceria.... hahaha

actually malam nie..... rancangannyer....
ainiey fetch aku & kay kat Kg Baru...
then... heading to Kedah...
tommorrow morning, naik ferry gi Langkawi...
on Sunday, trus balik KL....

its an adhoc plan...
discuss ptg smalam.... trus jdik jer...
betul la kata kay... kalo rancang dr awal confirm xjadiknye...
ehehee....

sukanyeerrrr.... ^_^

Congratulation!!!

2007-11-15T09:32:00.000+08:00

Congrats Kak Leen....
Kak Leen is my sis-in-law...
smalam convo Master dia @ UiTM Shah Alam...

so, smalam kitorang mkn ramai2 kat umah chik @ USJ14...
ala2 family gath yg kecik...

Menu:-

Domino Pizza ( Extravaganza & Vegie Lover)
Garlic Bread
Cornish Chicken
Hi-Fibre Cream Cheese Cake
Coffee

smalam siang... aku ngamuk.. tapi ngamuk aku bukanla menengking or marah2 org lain... cuma ngamuk lam diri sendrik... geram tul aku... aku ngaku yg aku nie "zero" psal keja2 library nie... yeala... my previous job mana ada kaitan ngn library... sblm nie aku keja ngan system.. setup system, update system, maintain system, troubleshoot & configure system... sblm tue pulak aku ngajar budak2 dip yg berkaitan ngan IT but more to system & management... psal library nie im still learning... bak kata org, aku budak baru belajar... seronok keja kat sini but sometime rser tak puas ati gak... tapi nk buat camner kan....

smalam abg suggest mintak UCE... i will think bout it.... mmg ada rancangan nk further study... aku nie cam tak puas jer idup kalo tak blajar... ehehehe.... insyaAllah 1 ari nnt aku akan further study... kat maner & course aper... aku still dok survey.... ehehe... ssh gak tue coz aku tak suka buat menda yg sama.... aku cepat bosan... byk masa lagik... ^_^

This is LIFE...

2007-11-13T09:40:00.000+08:00

aku kesian ngan kwn aku sorang nie... tp aku xleh nk tolong dia sangat... aku just leh kasi nasihat... tapi setakat mana sangat aku leh kasi nasihat coz aku sendrik tak arif pasal kawen-mawen nie....

sbg seorang insan yg lahir berada di muka bumi nie....
kiter kenala tabah, cekal & sabar.....
coz idup nie bukannyer cam fairy tales..
jangan la pulak kiter hanya berdiam diri jer...
kekadang, kiter kena kuar dr kepompong diri kiter sendrik..
lakukan satu perubahan yg bisa mengejutkan smua org....

in my experience, perubahan yg jdik lam idup aku utk masa sekrang sudah cukup buatkan aku tuk tersenyum kembali... "everyday is a new day" bak kata seorg chatters kt aku... alhamdulillah... idup aku smakin teratur eventho' stiap ari aku akan raser penat sangat.. ehehehe... thanx kay cz always b my side..

note 2 everyone...
senyumla.... walaupun kiter dalam keadaan kucar kacir...
kerana senyuman itu bisa membuatkan org lain ceria....
it's not 2 say that we have 2b hypocrite.... tp pd aku, its part of healing process...
cam win-win situation...

HALAL PORK ????

2007-11-09T10:03:00.000+08:00

Just wanna share... ada ke pork yg halal lam dunia nie...

ermmmmm ????

The Day You Went Away..

2007-11-09T08:24:00.000+08:00

Well I wonder could it be

When I was dreaming 'bout you baby

You were dreaming of me

Call me crazy, call me blind

To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better

And does she love you like I do

I do, you know I really really do

Well hey

So much I need to say

Been lonely since the day

The day you went away

So sad but true

For me there's only you

Been crying since the day

The day you went away

I remember date and time

September twenty second

Sunday twenty five after nine

In the doorway with your case

No longer shouting at each other

There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special

Something we'll never have again

I know, I guess I really really know

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone

How could I carry on

The day you went away

Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say

Been crying since the day

The day you went away

// The Day You Went Away // M2M //

HaPpY DeePaVaLi......

2007-11-08T13:26:00.000+08:00

to all the Hindus.... Happy Deepavali....
arinie aku gi keja jap... nk settle kan menda2 yg tertunggak smalam...
petang nie nk gi umah abang Suresh... ngan abg chik & anim..
lama dh tak makan tosai yg Aci masak...

Aci... saper tue aci??
Aci adalah seorang perempuan yg bertanggungjawab membesarkan aku, kakak & abg chik 1 ketika dulu... mstue aku stay kat Sg Siput (U)... if i not mistaken, Aci keja ngan mama since 1975 till 1985.. lebih kurang 10 thn... sampai skrang kitorang masih lagik baik ngan Aci... Aci dh macam mak angkat pada aku...

aku ingat lagik, last year waktu abg ngah tgh nazak kat spital, aci sampai dr johor... dia sanggup turun taiping even masatue dia tak sihat sangat... dia stay umah kami sampai la kitorg kebumikan abg ngah... dia jugak la pujuk aku suh nangis... dia tak sanggup ngk aku termenung & diam jer... eheheh... sorryla aci, ina dh takleh nk nangis masa tue... sedih sangat... ina rser cam lost biler abg ngah meninggal... kehilangan yg amat besar...

dulu masa kitorang pindah dr Sg Siput ke Taiping, aku la yg paling teruk nangis lam keta... eheheh... every week kena pegi Sg Siput jumper Aci kalo tak... confirm aku demam... kelakar betul biler ngenang balik... biler dh besar nie, dh jarang jumper tapi slalu jgak la contact....

Aci is a very strong woman... dia mmg cukup sabar... cukup tenang and cukup sabar... walaupun dia keja ngan mama tapi dia adalah tempat mama ngadu smuanya... dia dah jadik part of our family...

*life is always unpredictable... ppl may have different thought & perspective... i luv myself, my family & my frens esp kay & ainiey... ^_^

Masalah Jiwa...

2007-11-06T15:00:00.000+08:00

aku pelik... naper keliling aku penuh ngan masalh jiwa..
ehehehe.... termasukla aku....
but aku just ignore it... can i?? i dont know...

tapi apa yg aku tau... aku akan sedaya upaya avoidkan diri aku dr cinta...
naper?? pada aku... cinta = pengorbanan + masalah jiwa...
aku taknak lagik ada masalah jiwa... boleh jdik gila kalo slalu sgt ada masalah jiwa...

last nite, aku dh dengar sgala planning zainal... quite interesting...
he's very business minded person... kagum sekejap aku....
rite now, what's the important thing is to improve myself...

hati aku seriously dh takder kat sini... dh kosong...
i need to go some other places which is no one knows me....
im sick with those malay ppls... *sigh...

My Life is SUckS!!!!

2007-11-05T14:24:00.000+08:00

nper mesti ada manusia yg kejam lam dunia nie....
nper mesti ada kata2 nista yg dilemparkan....
adakah aku seorang yg terlampau hina hinggakan tak mendapat tpt di dalam dunia nie..??
apa2 pun... aku percaya... aku masih lagik mempunyai kawan2 disekeliling aku...

thanx babes (ainiey & kay)... both of u r the angels....
tonite.. aku nk jumper korg dua.... nak nanges... sob.. sob...
bper lama aku tak nanges...

kay... plz realitykan plan kiter....
aku dh tak tahan dah nie.... =(

i need a shoulder to cry on.. uwaaaa...

ermmm...

2007-11-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

aku tatau nk cakap camner....
seriously aku terasa sesangat....
adakah aku nie teruk sgt sampaikan bler org nk kawan ngn aku...
kena siasat or kenal diri aku dulu....
aku tak kisah kalo dia ada intention lebih dr seorang kawan..
but this is only frens..... just friends....
keciknya hati aku...
smemangnya aku tak layak tuk berkawan ngn sesaper pun...
yeah... aku sedar diri aku camner....

but.. its ok.... no harm for me...
aku xkisah... kalo ada org nk rapat ngn aku...
u r always welcome...
but if dont... its ok too... n just leave me alone..

Skills that you can sell...

2007-11-01T10:03:00.000+08:00

aku still terpikir apa yg Zainal cakap aritue... skills that we can sell... skill apa yg aku ada..?? i cant figure it out... ssh jgak nie... sakit kepala aku pikirkan menda nie... cam zainal, dia architect.. confirm la byk skill yg dia ada... cam Kay lak... as MIS Exect; dia dah tau camner nk troubleshoot hardware & software probs dan jgak network probs... yg aku nie... apa yg aku tau...

Network?? aku just tau skit... Hardware?? apala yg aku tau sgt.. takat pc & laptop aku sendrik boleh la... software?? byk ker software yg aku tau...?? kalo software psal graphic, aku surrender awal2... ehehe... server? aritue adala blajar ms kat sofware house tp xsempat nk khatam.. basic jer la pun.. adeeiihhh... masak? apa jer yg aku tau.. spaghetti, caramel pudding, bread pudding, choc cake, brownies... itu jer la tau pun tapi tue pun xder la sedap mana pun.. yg paling sedap yg penah aku masak... maggi mee perasa kari + telur... =P jahit? yg nie langsung tatau... kalo cross-stich tue ok la.. hahah..

skill apa yg aku ada nie... confius.. confius...
for the time being, aku akan ikut apa yg di suggestkan oleh zainal...
and aku kena brush up knowledge yg ada kat lam otak aku...
apa yg ada lam otak aku??? hahahaha..... mula la mengarut nie.. =P
skill yg mengarut tue la, slalunya very up to date...
skill yg tak mengarut camner lak.... ^_*

gambatte kudasai !!

A Plan...

2007-10-31T10:53:00.000+08:00

smalam lepak @ Stable Steak House, Kg Baru... aku, Kay & Zainal... kitorg discuss bout our plan... its so interesting and aku lak so excited... ehhehe... but, b4 u get something u want it so much, u need 2 sacrifice...insyaAllah my dreams will come true...

im happy dapat kawan cam Kay & Zainal... tp aku kesian kat diorang... last saturday aku janji nk gi Ulu Yam ngan diorg but aku gi keja.. btul kata Zainal... mana ader org sebut 2 stooges... yg ada hanyalah 3 stooges... ehehe... that means, aku kena slalu joint korang la.. huhu... rosakla dating korang... =P

arinie... aku amatla bad mood... i dont knoe y... selepas menelan 4 biji pain killer, hopefully aku akan ok.... *sigh

Kenapa??

2007-10-30T09:15:00.000+08:00

Salah ker bler aku menolong seseorang yg memerlukan pertolongan... walaupun org itu pernah menyakitkan hati aku & sehingga kini aku masih lagik merasakan kesakitan itu... sakit sangat raser... dan aku tidak pasti bilakah sakit itu akan pergi seperti berlalunya angin... i can accept him as 1 of my fren tp aku tak boleh nk berbaik2 dgnnya cam dulu... aku sendrik tatau naper jdik camtue...

smalam lepak2 ngan zerk & gee... diorang xcaya yg aku dah takder raser apa2 2wards that guy... diorg asyik provoke aku... adeeiihhh... sorg pun tak caya aku... nper la camtue.... and pagi nie pulak, Raj pun sebut nama dia... errmmmm....

u knoe guys... hati aku dh kosong... its empty... bak kata ainiey, dulu aku dh puas sayang org dan sekrang nie mungkin Allah dh tarik balik perasaan sayang dr aku... hopefully, ada org yg leh normalkan hati aku balik.....

and another thing....
aku rser rimas sgt sekrang bler that phillipino's teacher dtg lib.. aritue bru jer aku menarik nafas lega coz dia dh tak kaco aku... tp skrang nie dia kaco balik... it's getting worse... bler ada peluang je, he will touch my chin & my hands... blum lgik ngn words yg dia ckp/sms ngn aku... adeeiiihhh.. im not that cheap la... come on... plzz la paham aku... mmg la aku nie jenis sempoi & tak kisah but not kinda desperate hingga melayan smua lelaki yg ada lam dunia nie... aku ngaku aku nie jenis friendly, suka berkawan tapi still ada limit...

kepada lelaki diluar sana... perempuan tidak dijadikan sebagai alas kaki untuk dipijak dan ia juga tidak dijadikan sebagai 'toys' untuk melepaskan nafsu semata2.... so, pandai2la mengistilahkan seorang perempuan dgn menggunakan akal fikiran yg waras & berpandukan nilai2 keagamaan masing2...